Darkness Within

It lingers there, within the darkest corners of my soul. A darkness so thick and black it suffocates hope.  It's like drowning.  Sinking deep into the blackness, unable to breathe ... sometimes I break the surface and inhale the sweet perfume of  light before I am pulled back down into the murky deep.

Depression is serious and very real.  I have suffered with depression for many years. As a teenager I used to cut myself, as it was the only way I knew of to release the pain and find release. After I cut myself I would see the blood, feel the release and the tears would stop.  I have learned that this is not the way to cope; however, there are still many people out there who think this is the only way.  I feel for you, and hope for the day you realize that their are other outlets.

Depression affects over 18 million Americans age 18+ every year. 80% of these people are not seeking treatment. Depression will be the second largest killer, after heart disease, by the year 2020.  Ever heard of "mind over matter"?  Depression can also lead to other real sicknesses in the body.

1.9 million Americans self-injure themselves to help cope with internal depression. Most are not suicidal, just looking for a release and an outlet.  I was part of that 1.9 million in my teens, and even today occasionally when I'm in a really dark place in my soul, I think of doing it again. I still carry many scars on my body that have faded over time, but are still visible reminders of the pain that flows within my veins.

I use poetry as my outlet now.  If you'd like to read some of the emotional and depressing works you can visit me at  Fallen ~ Dark Thoughts & Poetry. I run this site separately due to the expressive and adult content.

One of my ultimate favorite songs that sums up the feeling that overwhelm me is Bother by Stone Sour. To hear the song click HERE - to read the lyrics, Click HERE.

It's not easy dealing with depression and the demons that lurk within.  You just have to remember that their are people out there who DO care about you.  There is light at the end of the tunnel, and support is ALWAYS available.

For more information on Depression please visit:  DepressionHurts.com

For more information on Self Harming, Please visit:  RecoverYourLife.com

Please do not hesitate if you suffer from depression to seek out help and friendship.  It is very serious and potentially fatal.  It's not a safe place to be, believe me.. I know.